Loving Together

Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction. ~ Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

I cannot help but think of all the new decisions Josh and I must make on a daily basis now that we are preparing to be parents. Decisions that may have come easily prior to our expecting don't seem as easy anymore. There feels more to lose. There feels more to risk. At the same time, the weight of these decisions brings a sense of aliveness that I have never felt before, that I have never lived through. It makes me acknowledge in a very present way all that our future may hold. The possibilities, the struggles, the joys, the history that we will write together. I guess it is the first time he and I feel as if we are faced with writing our own story. Everything has come so easily up until now. Falling in love just happened. Getting married was perfect. Our love for each other withstanding. I have no doubts that God has us in the palm of His hand. And, as our Gospel read at our wedding, He has our best interest and our best needs in mind. He knows what we need. I just pray that God continues to place HEAVILY on our hearts where He wants us, what Yes's he wants us to give, and what boundaries He wishes us to place. This man that I continue to look outwardly with, this man that loves me far greater than I could ever understand, is the man that I choose to walk into Heaven with. I beg that God continues to place on our hearts the ways in which He will have us go.